Friday, January 29, 2010

Hm...

It is currently 6:00 am and i'm still up. i've been in bed for hours, tossing and turning, but can't seem to fall asleep. so, most of you know that i have a significant other, haha, and when people ask how we're doing, i always tend to say we're good, but honestly, we're not. we're constantly fighting, arguing, just really think about whether if we can do this or not. maybe he's not the one for me? when people say "i feel like i've been stabbed 100 times" i never really understood until i felt it. it my seem corny or whatnot, but if really does hurt and seem to cause a pain that no one can fix. it's been so hard this year, it's so hard not to feel lonely, even with a boyfriend, i still am lonely. i try to keep myself occupied and things to keep my mind off of to not be by myself. i have all these people around me but am never satisfied. maybe it's because i need that one friend, that one friend you would tell everything to, someone you can trust with your life, and that friend is God. so this is my prayer and my wish, i really hope no one out there in this world is lonely, because it probably is the worst feeling. i really hope that all of us will find a moment, when we really open up our hearts and realize that we ALL NEED GOD. He is the one and only one for us when the whole world turns us down and is against us. so i ask God to help me with this relationship, with people, friends, and family. i also want to thank Him for giving this wonderful life that we all love and giving us our every need. living each and everyday is a battle; fight it with all you've got! Amen.

This is Sin Young Nam, and Jesus fulfills my life.

This is David O and David Kim and Jesus fulfills our lives!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Spring First JFML 8D

Today was the first day back for me at small group. It was nice to meet some new faces and to see the old faces of course. This day has been quite hectic for me. Actually this whole week was. My lab is so unorganized its frustrating to the max and tedious. Sometimes I wish I was not a science major. Of course I had some FML moments this week. With the fact that my lab I did wrong so I had to redo it even though I spent countless hours at tech on Tuesday night trying to finish it. But the good side of this week was, I was able to eat dinner/lunch with people. Today I ate dinner with Richard, it was the first time I actually had dinner with him. OF COURSE you have been avoiding it and not letting me buy, BUT THANKS for letting me buy this time 8D. It was a good experience. Always good to get to know people in the small group 8D. Anywho, I have a few prayer requests.... So as some of you know my relationship with girls are usually not that great. It always ends up taht a girl hates me for some odd reason and then its so dang uncomfortable. I am so uncomfortable. This week I heard from a friend that there are people well mostly girls that just dont like me, even though they barely had a chance to get to know me kind of thing. And all they do is judge me by my cover. I know everyone tells me to just ignore it, but it is something that "itches" me as Sharon would say. I don't like when people do not like me when they don't even know who I am exactly or even give me a chance. So I ask if you can pray for me, so that I will have the heart to pray for those girls that thrive after gossip and that I can someday forgive them for their actions. I also ask that you pray for me to be a better sister to everyone. I know for a fact that I am probably hard to get to know at first, I do still have that shield.

This whole week was an eye opener to me. The fact that JESUS DOES FULFILL MY LIFE and not FML at all. That whole incident with the girls and gossip and hating, Jesus went through all of that, people actually went out of the way to kill him and a lot of people did not like him. But in the end, JESUS still forgave them and prayed for everyone even though they hated them. Also even though my school work can be hectic, I realized that I should not push God and Jesus away from me, rather lean on them for help and guidance.

This is JENNYI <3, JESUS FULFILLS MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!


also HOPE EVERYONE has a WONDERFUL WEEKEND & UPCOMING WEEK!!!!!!!!!

Jesus Fulfills My Life!

hello :] i just wanted to start this semester off right by saying God is good all the time! well, the past semester was my first here at temple and i didn't take it seriously at all and so i did really bad... when i had time to study or do my homework i would just neglect it and play with my friends even though in the back of my head i knew that i should and that my family was struggling as a result of me. so over break and as the result of the one in love retreat that i went to over break, i was asking myself the questions of why am i even in college and why do the things i do. there was a heart motives sermon at the retreat so it got me thinking about myself and (even though i've known for a while) it just showed my utter helplessness, my empty life, and the fact that i have no motivation to go further in my life other than to get a job. it was really hard to grasp the fact that this is my life and i wasn't living it the way that i know i shouldn't and the way i know that God wants me to live. although it has been corrupted since the fall of mankind, work is something that was created for us and is something that is a gift for us. i know that in my heart and my mindset was that i did not want to work, study, or anything, but i never did anything to disprove to myself that this was not the way. just thinking about the things that i was doing and the motivation behind it was a real wake-up from my daily life. we may not feel like doing the things that we should be doing, but ultimately it's something that we have to do. before thinking about this, i was just on a spiritual roller coaster and just acting accordingly to how i felt that day and what was happening to me when this shouldn't be. when i was on a spiritual low, i wouldn't want to praise God or practically do anything that day. i would seclude myself in my heart even though it would seem as if i was okay, but in reality i was just blocking off the emptiness that i know was controlling my life.
but when i really think about myself in relation to this community that i have been set in, the friendships that i have, the family that i have been given, the God who is so righteous and just that i cannot even fathom how sinful i am in relation to his perfection and also Jesus Christ who in love came down to save me from the sins of this world, the temptations of my heart, the oppression of my doubts, the idols of my soul, and the sadness, loneliness, regret, jealousy, and especially the indifference that was reigning over my life. i just thank God that i have people who i can trust and be encouraged by and i hope that i can be an encouragement and light that shines on other people's lives. and i thank Jesus Christ my savior and everlasting pardon for my sins for pleading on my behalf. i don't know what God has in store for me, but i know that it is good!

Romans 7:21-25
21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!

He fulfills my life through knowledge of my failure and in the knowledge that God's love will NEVER fail.

This is Richard O, and Jesus Fulfills My Life

God is good all the time :]

EDIT :::
prayer requests - vision to see God's will, wisdom to understand God's will, courage and strength to carry it out, humbleness so that i will remember that all that i do should ultimately be for God's glory and endurance for the times to come. also, please pray for my family because they have not yet seen God's love or sacrifice as real and fail to understand why i follow Christ. one more prayer request is because i'm considering serving and joining Renewal's praise team in the near future, please pray that God will discern what God wants me to do within the church even though i have an inclination towards the praise ministry whether as potential drummer or praise leader.

First Post!

Jesus Fulfills My Life!


FML has become a popular but very negative saying in our culture today. For those of you that are not familiar with it, it actually means F*CK MY LIFE. Like many people, I found it really funny and I must admit, i did visit the FML website a few times and giggled at the stories, but I started to realize how horrible it was! It became almost like a "oh my gosh" kind of thing. A reflex slip of the tongue whenever something bad happened. I don't know about yall, but I don't think its a nice thing to say at all :(

Our small group is called JFML - Jesus Fulfills My life. My prayer is that whenever bad things happen, or even good things, rather than saying FML to describe how we feel, we will be able to say JFML instead. Why? Because in every way, according to the Gospel, Jesus really DOES fulfills our lives. & my prayer is that we will be the spark to that fire, and this mindset will spread to our campus & eventually the world!

The purpose of this website is for us to share with one another & even the world about how our lives are fulfilled by Jesus. Its our collection of JFML moments :). It will be a great way to not only stay connected & updated with our small group during the week, but it will also be a great way to reflect on our growth as individuals and as a community group family!

You can write about a struggle, a difficult day, or something awesome that might have happened. You can write about what you enjoy or love, family or friends. Basically almost ANYTHING (appropriate of course). But I do ask of 2 important ingredients that each blog MUST include:

1. Please conclude your entry with a few sentences of how that event/story helps you understand that Jesus Fulfills your life. Even though you may have THE WORST DAY of your LIFE, i'm sure God will find a way to help you understand :)
2. You must also END every blog with: "This is _____, and Jesus Fulfills My Life". I know it may sound corny/cheesy or whatever food you choose to use, but I think writing it, seeing it, and hearing it inside your head, helps you to remember & live it.

I CANNOT wait to read Blog post #2 :) Thank you & I love you all!

This is Sharon, and Jesus Fulfills My Life.